Updated: Aug 28, 2023
I go on a 3 mile walk around 5 or 6 days a week right after daily Mass. I love my walk and look forward to the fresh air, sightings of nature and seeing my friends.
Somedays I talk on the phone to my friend / producing partner or my Mom. Somedays I spend the walk just being quiet and focusing on all the gifts God has put in my path...bunnies, baby ducks, butterflies, beautiful flowers, waves breaking on the rocks and making that magical popping noise. Somedays I pray the whole time. Prayers of gratitude, thanksgiving and petition.
My life is pretty heavy these days. I have had way worse days and times to be certain, but lately things are just confusing and unclear as to what I am supposed to be doing. My husband and I always seem to be clawing our way upstream through mud with lightning striking us and arrows being shot at us. It's frustrating. It's exhausting. It's unnerving. Doing our best or having the best intentions doesn't seem to matter, which is deflating and defeating.
So today I decided to have a "Daydream Walk". I felt I needed a break. I felt I needed relief, a day to separate myself from the seriousness of life so I decided to think about what my life would be like if the weight of the world, (financial worries, family problems, uncertainty) were not squashing me down and taking the wind out of my sails. I would imagine what I could do...where I could go...who I could meet. I envisioned my life with things falling into place. With bills being paid and everyone getting along and forgiving one another and having some peace and harmony. With opportunities for travel and adventures and meeting new people...expanding my horizons! Of doing great and positive things that would help everyone see and know how much God loves them. Of, everyday, being a bright light to all I encounter.
After daydreaming...which was a lovely escape...I prayed. God knows the many needs and wishes of my heart. It's up to Him as to when, how and where my prayers get answered. With God all things are possible...maybe my daydreams won't be just daydreams much longer.